coffeectionis

do u need any help? then seek.

cari? cari ke mana?

when no one cares about a simple help called 'space', how the hell I could seek a help?

dari awal emang semua salahku. yes, I do need help but I denied.

bahkan setelah aku disadarkan bahwa aku ngga punya support system yang bisa membantuku berdiri, satu-satunya oase yang dengan tangan terbukanya menyambutku... malah kubuang jauh, ke tempat terjauh yang bahkan nggak bisa kugapai lagi meskipun kaki udah terseok dan berdarah-darah.

semuanya salahku.
yet i'm already living with those kinda judge from people around me.
now i judge my self and realize that's just not enough.

seek help? tch. bullshit.

I did. i've been doing it this whole time.

they just... chose to not into me. and thats okay. it's always okay for me.

u know what? I miss my self more than i know. I miss those time when I just... could be me.